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| Time: | 3:57 am. |
| Mood: |  apathetic. | | Music: | switchfoot-dare you to move. |
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(x) been drunk
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
(_) crashed a friend's car
(_) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(_) been fired
(X) been in a fist fight
(_) snuck out of my parent's house
(x) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) ever dated someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
(_) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
(_) stole something from my job
(_) celebrated new years in time square
(x) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(_) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
(_) been to Europe
(x) skipped school
(_) slept with a co-worker
(x) cut myself on purpose
(_) been married
(_) gotten divorced
(_) had children
(x) seen someone die. (mentally)
(_) been to Africa
(X) had a crush on one of my Live journal friends
(x) Slapped someone I loved
(x) Driven over 400 miles to attend a show/festival/fetish ball
(_) Been to Canada
(_) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
(x) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
(_) Thrown up in a bar
(_) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi
(_) Been snowboarding
(_) Met someone in person from the internet
(_) Been moshing at a concerts
(x) had feelings for someone you knew only online
(_) taken partially nude/nude photos of yourself
(_) been in an abusive relationship
(_) been pregnant or got someone pregnant
(_) lost a child (at the mall)
(_) graduated college
(_) tried killing urself
(x) taken painkillers
(_) intentionally burned urself
(x) love someone or miss someone rite now
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(9) Got caught... ♥ Kissing in the rain<3 |
| Time: | 12:47 am. |
| Mood: |  ecstatic. | | Music: | matchbook romance. |
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today was tottally awesome, or actually yesterday cause its 12 48 in the morning but yea, k so i went the the DMV and i took my permit test, and guess what!!!! I PASSED! It was soo great, so i thought i should reward myself...well i thought my dad should so he took me to borders and i baught this book called Odd Girl Speaks Out. Its pretty good so far. so yea. Then i went to the mall with jenn and molly and we got our nails done! haha i love molly and jenn! there so awesome, we had soo much fun!! anyways. So jul. 2 is my half birthday.. o look at that today is july 2nd!! hehe... so yea im leavin for chicago at 12 ill miss u guys!!!! k well im gunna go, love you all! well most of u!
<33
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(6) Got caught... ♥ Kissing in the rain<3 |
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Wednesday, June 30th, 2004
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| Time: | 3:04 am. |
| Mood: |  uncomfortable. | | Music: | avril lavigne. |
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Nobodys Home
I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
And I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again
What's wrong What's wrong now
Too many too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs
Chorus:
She wants to go home
But nobody's home
That's where she lies
Broken inside
No place to go
No place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside
Open your eyes
And look outside
Find the reason why
You've been rejected
Now you can't find
What you've left behind
Be strong be strong now
Too many too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs
Chorus
Her feelings she hides
Her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's falling behind
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's falling from grace
She's all over the place yeah
Chorus
She's lost inside lost inside
She's lost inside lost inside
Avril Lavigne.
Its like she wrote this song about me, cause its how i feel a lot of the time.
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(11) Got caught... ♥ Kissing in the rain<3 |
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The beach today was so freakin awesome! I had so much fun with jenn today in the water!! haha until my boobs kept coming out of my bathing suit everytime there was a big wave!!! lol but it was soo much fun!! lol and then after wards we went to dinner at alcapulco, lol that was fun! haha then we went to baskin robbins were i coulndt stop laughin!! haha well i had a blast today and i am in love with the beach!
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Becca
*H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y S A N D R A*
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(11) Got caught... ♥ Kissing in the rain<3 |
| Subject: | wow. |
| Time: | 8:59 pm. |
| Mood: |  indescribable. | | Music: | story of the year. |
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first, let me start off with fifth period today was incredible! OMG! There are soo many talented people in that class and it really showed today. I think S84 has become my new comfort zone. Its not just a class room, it the place where i feel safe (other than my room). today was undescribable! I appriciated it so much! all the support everyone gave me and my scene! I love madison cristina and megan!!!! we kicked ass! we were soo awesome!!!! ah! we all helped eachother so much and we made it all work! We are the definition of team work! All of the scenes today kicked ass! im so proud of everyone!!! god today was great!
<3333
Becca
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(16) Got caught... ♥ Kissing in the rain<3 |
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Saturday, June 12th, 2004
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| Time: | 11:29 pm. |
| Mood: | high. | | Music: | nothing. |
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What Would You Do If
I cried:
I asked you to help:
I was becoming suicidal:
I killed myself:
I died from natural causes:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:
What Do You Think About My
Personality:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Family:
Would You
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth, no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
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(8) Got caught... ♥ Kissing in the rain<3 |
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Well today was the very first day of finals. My Biology final wasnt as hard as i thought, but i know i will still get a fail or a D cause im retarded like that. But yea, aww i saw blake today, again!! it was def. fun. I wanna car so bad! i wanna be able to drive! someone needs to take me to take my test!!!! Anyways, yea well ok im gunna go... im bored!
<33 becca
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(1) Got caught... ♥ Kissing in the rain<3 |
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everyone thinks its soo easy, but its not... everyone thinks i have nothing to complain about...well i do..no one fucking listens to anything i say...but hey thats life i guess, while the more fortunate have everything they could possably ask for they are still complaining....but the people that have nothing are happy.. well im some where in the middle of those two kind of people... i guess god just decided that we arent important enough....i guess ill just have to get used to it... ill have to get used to seeing people find love while im still searching, though my search seems interminable...ill have to sit back and hear the laughter of my friends while inside im screaming for someone to actually care about me and my feelings....ill have to whatch my friends smile 24-7 while im in tears 24-7.. so at the age of 16 i've realized that life sux and you cant really make it better..lifes all about luck and the cards your delt with, i just guess my deck was half empty....
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(16) Got caught... ♥ Kissing in the rain<3 |
| Subject: | FUCK! |
| Time: | 9:24 pm. |
| Mood: |  aggravated. | | Music: | Avril Lavigne - under my skin CD. |
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fuck man! now both of my fish are dead! wtf i didnt know you werent supposed to use soupon there little bowl thing! god damn it! i cant even take care of fish, im gunna be a horrible mom! w.e now i need new fish.. its really weird though, ariel died exactly a week ago and now today tegan dies, how sad. maybe she died of lonlieness, like the book were the red fern grows.... ya anyway, thats it, later.
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(11) Got caught... ♥ Kissing in the rain<3 |
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I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
t's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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(6) Got caught... ♥ Kissing in the rain<3 |
| Time: | 8:54 pm. |
| Mood: |  crushed. |
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never be explained
The things I feel in my inner most soul..
Can never be expressed...
The thoughts that run through my mind will take their toll...
Before I can catch breath
So much pain..
So many bruises
Only to fail.. and have nothing to show.
I'm so extremly sorry I want you to know.
I tried harder than I ever had before
To shove it away and not see you walk out that door..
But now you're gone and I know what I have done.
The constant quiet,
Never opening up.. made you run.
Sick of the whining.
Why can't I's?
Shoulda, coulda, woulda's..
Just smack me, spite me..
Drown me in the sea
Don't you understand... understand..
This wasn't supposed to be me.
Shying away with each touch,
Terrified of being near
Backing away with each smile
Fearing the next will be a sneer..
Don't you see? Don't you see?
It's not you.. it's just me.
The feelings that I harbor can never be expressed..
The thoughts that I possess can not be unwound..
They just can't, don't you see?
I'm willing to drown.
Give me the knife, give me the pills.
Why do I say that?
Do you think that I will?
The temptation is strong..
To just give up the fight..
But this is just me..
All alone tonight.
You stand there I know..
Through the rain, sleet, and snow..
Never leave me.. trust me.. I can never let you go.
Just forsake me...
It would be easier now..
Just forget me..
Stop watching me now.
What I say I don't know.
I close my eyes and the words come out.
I can't shake it.. can't shake it...
and now I know..
No matter what..
It will never be explained.
Not here. No, not even now.
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(8) Got caught... ♥ Kissing in the rain<3 |
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Notice me
and Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, your haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, your haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, your haunting me
I guess I need you baby
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Kissing in the rain<3 |
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Wednesday, April 28th, 2004
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| uleavemebrthlss's LJ stalker is agoobagoo! | | agoobagoo is stalking you because you said something bad about them on your LJ. They are also getting jiggy with your best friend! |
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(1) Got caught... ♥ Kissing in the rain<3 |
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| uleavemebrthlss's LJ stalker is agoobagoo! | | agoobagoo is stalking you because you said something bad about them on your LJ. They are also getting jiggy with your best friend! |
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Kissing in the rain<3 |
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way happy!.
freakin happy!.
i want a bf!!!! and ppl sux!.
content.
bouncy.
im sorry!!.
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